The Strength to Recover: Wendy’s Powerful Primal Story

Where to begin? My earliest memories of food and health started, of course, with family. I remember that my mother was never happy with her weight and was always on some sort of diet. As a little girl, I remember the Slim Fast shakes, the diet pills that would “puff up” in your stomach, leaving no room for food (genius, I thought, as a 6 year old), and the food restriction. Meanwhile, my sister, my father and I would feast on fish sticks, rice a roni, and vitamin D milk. This had little impact on me as a child, but stayed with me through adulthood.

I was never overweight. I was always thin and had muscularity thanks to genetics. Without lifting a finger, I had biceps that wowed the other kids at school. I took up athletics, and ran track, played volleyball, and played as kids do. I ate what was put in front of me and always cleaned my plate. Weight wasn’t so much a concern of mine, but it was always there, lurking in the back of my mind, memories of my mother and her struggles.

About 4 years ago, I went shopping with my mom and my sister. There were these awesome blue velvet pants that I HAD to have. Size 4. I was always a size four, no problem. Went to try them on just as a matter of duty, and they didn’t fit.  Come to think of it, none of my jeans fit anymore either. That day was it for me. A turning point and the beginning of a very dark time. That day, I became anorexic. I restricted myself to 800-1000 calories a day, and began working out like no one’s business. I lost the weight, but the CR and exercise didn’t stop. I don’t want to go into details, I am not the “poor me” type. I got down to a zero, and it was easy because people kept telling me how great I looked. Finally, I found Marks Daily Apple and a trainer. I was able to realize that skinny didn’t equal healthy. Anorexia is mostly about control and obsession. While any obsession isn’t healthy, I was able to at least begin to control a diet that was healthier for me than what I was doing.

I’ve been eating primally now for about 2 years. I am a size 4 again, and thanks to heavy lifting and a great trainer, and boxing, I have replaced the desire to look stick thin with the desire to have the best muscularity on the block.

Pictures will not accompany this letter because I still struggle with my body image. Every day is a fight, and I still spend more time thinking about food than any human being should. But, thanks to Mark, I am healthy and everyday trying to follow the 10 tenants. I am still working on stress and fitting in play, but I am confident that day will come.

This thank you is long overdue. Mark, you may have saved my life. Thank you.

Wendy, aka PrimalJewishAmericanPrincess

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  1. Thank you for sharing, Wendy.
    You are a beautiful woman, and an inspiration to us all!

  2. Congratulations on having the courage to make a change and thank you for sharing your story with us, Wendy!

  3. You pretty much just told my story as well, and i’m sure many other women’s (and men). Thx for sharing, always nice to feel less alone with those overpowering thoughts about food and your body.

  4. Taking care of yourself the way you have is a MAJOR accomplishment–your dedication and commitment to living primally is amazing. . .congratulations!

  5. All the stories I’ve read for the contest have been so wonderfully written and inspirational but yours has brought tears to my eyes for some reason. Congrats to you for recognizing your weaknesses, working hard to be the best person you can be, and sharing your challenges in a very vulnerable way.

  6. Thank you all for your kind words and ongoing support. It’s a great feeling to know that no matter what day or time, I can log on to Marksdailyapple and the forum and find inspiration, knowledge, and food for my primal thought.

  7. An amazing story that left me feeling really wowed. You are inspiring 🙂