The Perils of Periwinkle Pitstop - Vol 2
I successfully ate in a more or less primal manner for 3 months or so about 18 months ago. Then I separated from my now ex-husband, became a single mom of 2 kiddos, went through about 10 months of utter exhaustion trying to work full time and raise two kids who didn't sleep through the night. I fell off the wagon and just didn't have the energy to do more than I absolutely HAD to. Sticking to a primal way of eating was made harder by the fact that I am one of those unlucky people who do NOT lose weight by getting rid of processed food and grains. Yes, I felt better, but I think I gained and lost the same pound for 3 months and when I ate in a conventional manner, I continued to neither gain nor lose weight. I think now lack of sleep and stress was causing my body to go into a state of panic or something and resist change in either direction. It was a long 10 months.
However, I have made some huge changes in my life. Quit my job, moved to Dallas, went back to grad school to become a women's health NP, my daughter started kinder, I went on and then back off an antidepressant, and I have been really getting to know myself in the last year, just a little over a year since my divorce was finalized. and I have trained the children it come get in sleeping bags on my floor mostly without waking me up 2 or 3 times a night. And I have made a romantic connection with an amazingly compatible man, who unfortunately lives in Kentucky, but I love his town and 1922 Craftsman house, so when I graduate in 18 months, relocation would be very doable. And...that stuff us Texans read about in books, I think it is called "Snow," get this...it SNOWS in Kentucky.
The main purpose of this journal is to track my food but I wanted to introduce myself.
Also wanted to mention that most of the time if I say salad dressing, then I made it myself with local olive oil, ACV, poppy seeds, celery seeds, sea salt and pepper and sometimes a bit of mashed up avocado. One big difference between this time and last time is that I no longer live 15 min from a raw dairy. I am a total raw milk addict and it is fortunate that I do not live near a good dairy at the moment. Right now I am aiming for a Whole 30 + coffee and half n half. I do not currently have any 85% dark chocolate in the freezer, but that is subject to change without notice.
I take Vit D 3 gummies every day, 4000 microunits a day, because my Vit D was "14" last March. I don't really notice any difference in how I feel, though. and yes, I know I drink too much coffee and thus too much half n half...but I don't smoke, so i figure it evens out. My lack of exercise is a whole other issue. I am 41, 4ft 9, and female.
Dinner Last Night:
7 ounces of steak, fried in a bit of olive oil
large salad with romaine, spinach, radishes, pecans, and dressing
cabbage simmered in water with bacon (applegate farms, nitrate and nitrite free, organic - all bacon mentioned is this kind.
coffee with half n half
2 eggs fried over easy in bacon grease
3 ounces of stew meat fried in bacon grease
2 pieces of bacon
cabbage fried in bacon grease and a bit of coconut oil
lots of coffee with half n half
It's just another day in paradise
As you stumble to your bed
You'd give anything to silence
Those voices ringing in your head
You thought you could find happiness
Just over that green hill
You thought you would be satisfied
But you never will-
Learn to be still