Eating disorder recovery attempt, panicking
I found out last week that the anorexia I thought I got rid of never left. I've had it unintentionally for eight years. It's wrecked me, essentially. Tiredness, emotional instability, weakness, inability to get stronger, skewed body image, anxiety, massive obsession over food, etc., even though I'm at a normal BMI. Today I started the recovery plan from youreatopia.com, which says I need to eat 3000+ calories a day to heal, over double what I was eating when I thought I had beaten this, and triple what I ate from ages 8-14. I've got about 2500 so far today, mostly primal, and I'm freaking out because my stomach hurts but I want to eat more because I'm suddenly hungrier than I am after not eating for a day, but I also don't know if I'm starving or full and my head hurts and this is really really sudden and it's scaring me.
I'm not really asking a question here, I just needed to say something because no one is listening.
Last edited by Alexis47; 09-29-2013 at 05:52 AM.
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F, 16, 5 ft 3 in. Primal since 7/24/2013.
SW: 115 lbs at 22.5% BF (7/23/2013)
CW: 107.5 lbs at 19.0% BF (8/20/2013)
Goals: get better