Primal Journal - Zinnia
Hi everyone. Or maybe just me. I'm here to document and hopefully hold myself accountable as I move into the endgame of my primal weight loss and fitness goals. Of course, I fully intend to continue to make primal choices throughout my life even after these goals are met.
I'm in my late 20's and a shade under 5'2". I put on weight gradually starting in college, although thankfully I've never been much of a yo-yo dieter. My high weight was about 3 years ago, when I think I topped out in the 145-150 lbs range. I was unhappy with my body and knew something needed to be done, so I doubled down on a CW-healthy diet, counted calories, exercised, and dropped maybe 5 lbs. It was rough, and I was constantly fixated on food and when I could eat more of it.
In early 2011, somebody, somewhere on the internet (thank you random person!!!) mentioned Gary Taubes' book "Why We Get Fat," which I eagerly devoured. For the first time in my life, I understood that the problem wasn't my lack of willpower or some other moral failing on my part, but because something was wrong with the advice I was getting. It was insanely liberating. After that, I followed an Atkins-style low carb diet and dropped to about 127 lbs. I was thrilled, feeling good about myself, happy to be in a healthy weight range, but still not quite where I wanted to be. I stayed around that weight for about a year. (Much love to Dr. A, by the way. I don't think he got everything quite right, but I really admire his willingness to be a voice of dissent against the mainstream dogma. And if you follow Atkins the way he envisioned it, eating real foods and avoiding low carb junk food, I think many/most people will find that they are 90% of the way to a healthy diet.)
In mid-2012, I mentioned my low carbing to a co-worker and she said, "Oh, are you doing paleo?" And I was like, what is this paleo you mention? I immediately started researching online, found MDA, and read "The Primal Blueprint." I also read "It Starts With Food", by the Whole 30 people. I feel like at that point, everything really clicked for me in terms of what I eat, mindfulness of food sources, and exercise. I did a Whole 30 and also began incorporating more long slow movement, although I never managed to get into strength exercises. I lost a few more pounds and have been bouncing around in the 119-123 lbs range ever since.
I recently moved to a new country, and being primal has been a bit difficult to implement. On the one hand, I don't have a car so I walk, bike, or take public transit wherever I need to go. On the other hand, I have a very limited kitchen (no oven, tiny fridge, very very little counter space or cabinet storage) and somewhat limited food options. The grocery stores here are simply not as big and diverse as the ones Stateside and I haven't/don't have the wherewithal to run all over the earth looking for perfectly primal options, so my food quality has suffered a bit. Bread and cheese (I'm lactose intolerant) are everywhere, though I've pretty much managed to avoid those things so far. Plus, I don't speak the local language and - I know I need to get over this - I hate asking for help.
Whew! All of this to say, I'd really like to lose the elusive "last 10" lbs and tone up. I know it won't be easy since I'm fairly small and already at a reasonably healthy weight. I know I need to strength train. I just signed up to work with a personal trainer 2x per week. Yes, expensive, but I can't seem to motivate myself to do any strength training so I'm hoping this will kick my butt in the right direction. I'm also going to start some IFing and see how that goes.
My plan is to do a 16/8 fast three days per week (the days I am not working with the personal trainer). On the days I work with the trainer, I'll eat as normal, but maybe incorporate a piece of fruit or a sweet potato after the workout session. This is mostly a timing issue since I usually have 1-2 servings of fruit per day. Workout sessions will be morning or mid-day so I can't really eat a huge meal afterwards since I'll have to go straight to work. No particular plans for the weekends except to stick to primal foods and keep myself moving.
Weight: 121.4 lbs
Neck: 11 7/8"
Chest: 32 1/4"
Waist: 25 1/2"
Hips: 37 7/8" (yeah, I'm such a pearů)
Where did you move to? Small kitchen, cheese and bread, sounds like France, expect France has some nice butcher shops.
On your stats, it looks like you have a perfect hour glass shape already.
Welcome Zinnia. Good luck with the strength training, a traiiner is a good idea so you can learn to do it properly. Have fun.
Sadly, not France - although I think I would have a much harder time resisting the bread, cheese, and pastries there! I'm in the Netherlands. Not exactly a place known for its food culture. Possibly the least paleo country, food-wise, on the face of this planet. Ok, I guess I exaggerate a little bit.
I was riding my bike back home today and happened upon a street fair, which was absolutely burgeoning with goodies I can't have. But I did find a booth that sold nut butters and the like without vegetable oils or other weird additives. Yay! I bought myself a little jar of "Cacao Now!" (ingredients: cocoa, coconut oil, maple syrup, cocoa butter, vanilla and salt). I brought it home and ate some spread on coconut chunks. That was good, but it was even more heavenly eating it straight out of the jar :P Tastes like a really yummy ganache. Anyway, this will still have to be a special treat for me. I'm wondering if sticking it in the freezer will deter me from just wolfing it down with reckless abandon.
I'm a little bit frustrated with my lack of progress over this past month. I weigh exactly the same as I did on August 1. My diet has been really good, certainly much better than it was back home when I'd be less strict over the weekends. There's a few things I can clean up here and there, but I think it might just come down to the fact that my body's at a set point and any further progress from here might have to involve calorie counting. That is such a bummer.
But you are so slim already. Further progress might be better measured with a tape than a scale. And by what your body can do - improvements in lifts, distance, speed, co-ordination etc.
I know you're right, Annieh. Part of the problem is that my mind's eye doesn't see myself as "slim" yet. I'm still a chubby girl in my head. But yes, I'm really looking forward to seeing what some strength training will do.
First official session with the trainer. I am beat. I felt weak and pathetic. Of course, I guess that is why I'm doing strength training. Hopefully I'll feel less noodle-like by my next session on Thursday.
Ate an apple right after the workout, and it was the most delicious apple I have ever eaten in my whole life. I think I really needed those carbs. Came home after work and had a gigantic salad with like a pound of chicken, half an avocado, and olive oil. And some strawberries. And some carrots and hummus. I finished the hummus and I'm going to try not to buy any more of it.
The plan for tomorrow is an IF with a walk at lunch time in my Vibrams. I don't think they've hit these shores yet, but maybe I'll start a trend!
I just barely made it through my 16 hour IF this morning, then ate a plateful of fries at around 12:30 pm. I was feeling woozy and lightheaded during the morning (and not just in a low carb brain fog way), so I concluded that I didn't eat enough calories or carbs or something after my fairly intense workout yesterday. Lesson learned. Hopefully next time I'll have planned ahead better, or at least will be in a headspace to make a better choice than fries when an emergency strikes. I did get in a nice walk though. Perfect, sunny weather and a stroll along the canal. I'd better enjoy it while it lasts, because the winter is going to be long, dark, and cold.
Oh yeah, I get absolutely starving after doing any weights. It's great! Because I love my food
Today's resolve: I will not let the scale be the boss of me!!