Sorry to come into this so late. Firstly - I'm really glad you finally brought things up with him. I know you were nervous about it, so kudos - at least the initial conversation is out of the way.
It's pretty normal to have doubts once you say the words. I think a lot of people fear making a huge mistake. However, what finally got me out of my long-term relationship was the thought that for a relationship to work, it has to be "good" at least a certain percent of the time. That percent will vary from person to person, but maybe it's worth considering how much happiness in a relationship is enough for you to stay in it?
Back then my standards were pretty low, so I figured that a relationship had to be happy 50% of the time for it to be worth it, and mine wasn't. Sounds strange, but that little boundary gave me the final push to break up with him.
Also, many people go into denial about things like this. I think it's cos they can't process it (the perceived rejection?). My ex didn't believe that I had broken up with him until he went on holidays and I moved all his stuff out (I'd been trying to get rid of him for three - four years..!) And I know of a lot of other situations where men / women just don't accept the break up: either by ignoring it, or convincing themselves that the person will come to their senses.
Good luck... <3
Btw, I'm still coming to CA, but it will be springtime, so keep it warm for me til I see you there
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