What I can say is all that stuff above is fun! I enjoy it... whereas training is fun, but its still business. I'm gonna lift that damn weight no matter what! Psyched up and its both physically and mentally draining enough that I'm not "wanting" to do it again any time real soon. I'm a glutton for punishment (have to be being a wrestler), but I've dialed it back these days. Oh, one last thing that pec rupture really did a number on me for a while psychologically. Tough to get under some real heavy weight and expect your body to produce results after it gave out so completely that one fateful time. But, I got over it.... shit happens. Figure what you did wrong and move on.