Hello dear reader,
first of all my name is Adrian, I'm from Poland and I'm (only) sixteen years old.
I've decided to start this journal to show you my long, sometimes sad and difficult road to healthy body and mind. I hope it won't be boring and you will enjoy reading it.
A little description of my character:
-I can spend hours reading books
-My favourite sport is skiing
-I'm very shy and introvertic
-I like spending time alone
To start with, I've been always fat kid, mainly thanks to my family habits, like eating really huge amount of grains, sugars etc. I felt really bad with it. Now I've been trying to eat paleo since beggining of 2013. But I do have problems with eating disorders, They started in September 2012. I started calorie counting and it was the biggest mistake. I cut them down to 1400 a day, while my height is 1,8 m (5,91 ft). My weight in December was very low – 55kg (121 Ibs). I felt horrible, my body couldn't produce enough heat, my hands and feet used to freeze and blood didn't circulate in them. Yes, I suffered from anorexia.. and was only fifteen years old. I don't want to know how my body is destroyed. I feel that something is messed up with hormones, like testosteron. I hope that paleothic diet will help me to recover. It started from reading about hunger etc, I found some blog with description of sugar influence on insulin levels. It interested me a lot and I soon found myself into primal and paleothic diet descriptions, succes stories etc. But one things was horrible for me.. fat. I was so afraid of it, measuring every table spoon of olive oil and checking weight of bacon I was going to eat. And I still do have some problems I can't overcome. First of all is calorie counting. I can't see food normally. For me eveything is amount of calories. My biggest dream is to stop this. But I don't know how and I really count for someone's support here, as I'm really afraid of doctors etc. My body weight and composition is getting better, but still too slow. I'm 62,5 kg (138 Ibs) now, so it's really low. I try to exercise as often as I can, but I don't have enough energy often.. Because I can't break barrier of 1800 kcal a day.. I know it might sound funny, but I just can't.. I really would like to be like other normal people and gain some muscles, but my body doesn't have sources to build them.
What I want to achieve?
1) Gain muscles
2) Stop counting calories
3) Have more energy
4) Cut down on coffeine amount
5) Find some interesting people around here
6) Get more and more knowledge about our bodies and find interesting recipes
7) Start to be more outgoing and open for my friends
I'm going to try to keep this journal updated daily, with things I ate, my exercises, my mood and sometimes descriptions of other things I've done.
I'm also very sorry for my low English level and many language mistakes, but I'm still learning.