i think a lot of my issues stem from my childhood when i didnt have the power to change anything. schools and so on too. as i had said before, it does my head in that i can see destructive behaviour x is a direct reaction to incident y. and yet i then still do behaviour x. maybe i could get to the stage where incident y occurs and i go meh. water off a duck's back. but i cant personally see how that could be a physical thing. i do know there is a huge mind brain body connection and alot of everything can be nutritional. and that is also where i get lost.I am generally the author of my own misfortune these days - being and feeling trapped are two different things, but apparently my brain hasn't figured that out yet.
LOL at you ignoring the stripper comments. squatting can be very hard if you cant just do it. anything is really that you have to train to do.