I understand. Really, there is nothing that will make the killing any better. Killing will always be just that final. But it doesn't have to be torturous.
See, I live in the country now. Out here, there are still small, family-operated meat processors. The one I visit sits in the middle of the bucolic countryside, in the same county where the cows (or pigs or deer) live. They have travelled a short distance to get there, brought by their own farmers, and they actually have appointments. No assembly line killing. I cannot think of any way to make it less stressful under the current laws, unless you were lucky enough to get a traveling butcher to come to the farm, of which there is actually at least one in the US (he was featured on Discovery's Dirty Jobs show, although that one wasted all of the organ meat as the customer didn't want it, sadly).
I wouldn't have ever known about this had I never left urban-suburbia.
No, my kid in question turned out to be a special needs child, and is a type A. I am type B, the other three girls are type AB. My type A kid has brain abnormalities originating in the first couple of weeks of fetal development. She has had gut issues from the very beginning, and her diet must needs be meat-based, as grains of any type make her sick, and she thrives on it. IMHO, my body was just responding to her developmental reality.
I had two kids before her, preggo veg, with no problems. My first kid was a natural veg as well, until about 5 or so. Then the bacon bug bit...
I started a thread once asking the forum about hunting, and as of today I don't even go fishing, even though I do believe the Primal premise has very much merit and so eat meat again. I say "again" because I was raised eating meat, and made the veg jump for ethical reasons as soon as I left my parents household.
I have a mantra that I have spouted for years... "If I eat right, I feel right. If I feel right, I exercise right. If I exercise right, I think right. If I think right, I eat right..." Phil-SC