Thank you, Jeapa.
I've been reading some other journals. That also helps.
Something that I have not said yet is that I have been taking psychotropic medications for 16 years and started seeing a holisitic doctor to see what I could do while I am trying to go off of them. I have had success with anxiety reduction from eating primal. When I introduce non-approved foods, my anxiety comes back. Time outdoors helps with anxiety. Sleeping at 68 degrees helps me sleep. The whole lifestyle seems to be proving really well for my mental health. but then I keep going off track. And then the anxiety comes back and I feel not as good. It's like why am I sabatoging myself like this?
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