Hey @missblue. Not sure about the flat thing, with me it was quite the opposite. I was drinking to numb emotional pain/trauma which put me into a vicious circle of self loathing. I couldn't have been any more flat than I was then.
I find that now, the charisma has come back with the confidence and absence of self loathing. Not that I'm a nutter that bounces around everywhere here and there, just unfalteringly sanguine. It's a good place to be