Thursday, 20th June 2013
Day Five of Willpower Challenge
4.30 - 9.30
Couldn't fall asleep, then I couldn't stay asleep.
Nothing, again. I was kind of just being a couch potato today. But I'm lifting tomorrow
Really unstructured again, with only one "proper" meal.
Bits and pieces (as in I just tasted the stuff): Chicken livers and a beef stew
Dinner: Pan-fried beef scallopini (not breaded, cooked in coconut oil) with a huge salad again
Drinks: Coffee + splash of milk and stevia
Wasn't particularly hungry throughout the day, again. But I guess I'll be ravenous again tomorrow, since I'm lifting. Hopefully it won't get too crazy!
Thoughts and Stuff:
I was playing with my Omron hand-held body fat monitor and realized it had two modes: athlete and normal. Although I wouldn't consider myself an athlete, based on the formula the manual gave me, I was supposed to use the athlete mode. When I switched to that, I got a BF% reading that was 2% lower. Anyone ever use the things and have any clue as to their accuracy? I heard they overestimate, in general. I'm just using it to track progress or lack of progress. But it'd be nice to know!
I was also looking at the print-out thing my doctor gave me of my weight + bf% half a year ago (when I had to start gaining again). Honestly, at the time, my bf% was still high, and if my omron is accurate at all, I've only gained like 2-3kgs of fat out of the 7 or something that I gained. I also noticed that the majority of my BF was in my butt. I mean, it's a family thing, so all the females in my family have prominent butts, but it still made me laugh (a lot) to see it on paper. And I showed it to my mom, who burst out laughing and said "ahh GENETICS". I'll probably get it checked out at the doctor's office again soon. Or not, ignorance might be bliss!
I was about to get into a reallyyyy negative place at some point today, but I managed to turn it around. I was thinking that there was no point, and I'd never get to where I want to be. Then I thought "why not?" There are people out there who are 100+lbs overweight, and I'm going to cry and give up over ~15-20? I know some of you disagree with my setting a "goal date", but I think that I can definitely get those 15-20 off before next April. I mean that's around 10 months. It doesn't sound impossible to me. So I'm going to do it! It really is just a matter of patience. I just get so demotivated when I don't see instant progress. Patience patience patience. I'm going to do it this time, and I'm going to do it right.
Unrelated to food and body issues, I suddenly completely let go of all my thoughts of that guy that made me anxious. I just had the most random "ahh, whatever, who cares, it's not like that's someone I'd actually want to be with." I don't know if I mentioned it before, but my curiosity has no limits, and I sometimes confuse it for interest. I guess my curiosity ran dry in his case .
WARNING: Skip this next bit if you think periods and/or bowel movements are icky!
I'm not really going to say anything about periods, just that I think mine is on it's way. Definitely feeling the bloat in my lower tummy today, and the general aching in my joints (and a slight hint of cramps). As for BMs...wellllll, where the heck are they? I've never been very regular, and certainly not a "once a day" person (except for a very brief period of time), and not even a "every other day" person. Any tips on how to fix that?
Question Of The Day
If you could go absolutely anywhere in the world, where would you? Why would you go there, and would you take anyone with you?
I forgot to sayyy, day five of the willpower challenge iiiis done done done
She's such a charmer, oh no.