Saturday, 15th June 2013
Day One of My Willpower Challenge
00.30 - 9.30
Pretty restless last night. Woke up a looot. I realized this happens quite a bit when I eat non-primal stuff. Just always end up super hot and toss and turn all night.
65 minutes on the treadmill
-25 minutes @ 5.0mph
-25 minutes @ 6.0mph
-15 minutes @ 3.5mph
Total : 5.45 miles
Breakfast: Sweet potato frittata (2 whole, 2 whites). - Thinking of changing it up tomorrow, since I've had this way too many days in a row now.
Lunch: Chicken breast deli slices
Dinner: Grilled salmon and shrimp (yum )
Calories: ~900 - I wasn't hungry when I woke up today, probably due to the monstrous amount of food I had yesterday. But I wasn't very hungry throughout the day either. I'm thinking that's because I'm getting more protein in
Thoughts and Stuff:
Today was a good day! It was one of those really lazy Saturdays.
I realize I always feel so much more at ease at the end of a day when I've stuck to primal eating. After eating all that stuff yesterday I was just groggy and grumpy for the rest of the evening. And that led to me snapping at everyone whenever they said the smallest of things to me. Not good at all! It's also ruining my skin . But I'm happy I got through day one of my little challenge!
Today my brother asked me what my goal was with all the lifting I was doing. I said it was to get stronger + build muscle. Which, sure, is true. But really, my main goal was to get leaner. I don't know why I just can't tell anyone I know in person that I want to lose fat. He would never make fun of me for it, but he's one of those naturally tall and slim people, with the suuuuper speedy metabolisms. So I felt there was no point telling him, because he really wouldn't know how to help me anyway, I think.
I think I lied just now. I do know why I don't like telling anyone. In the back of my mind, I always think if I let someone see a flaw in me, or something I consider a flaw (so even if they don't think I need to lose weight, but they know that I think I do), that they're bound to use it against me, somehow. My brother defiiinitely wouldn't, but I think that's why I wouldn't tell my friends, for example. I really feel like I could use the support and the help, but at the same time, I want to just do it by myself. I don't like feeling vulnerable or feeling like I'm relying on someone. Meh.
I look at myself sometimes and I'm like "you know, it's not like you have a bad figure, you've gotten plenty of compliments on your curves". But I'm just not happy with it. I want to be lean and I want to look in the mirror and be satisfied. I know these things take time though, so, I'll let them take the time that they need! Trying to rush it didn't end well for me last time anyway.
But, all in all, it was a good day. A nice, lazyyy Saturday.
Question of the Day:
What do you want most in life?
So when your hope's on fire, but you know your desire, don't hold a glass over the flame, don't let your heart grow cold. I will call you by name, I will share your road.