I wish I was the exception to the rule! But I think it's more of a 'big change' to just keep me busy or distract me that I had meant. Not necessarily to change my obsessive habits. It feels like it'll be forever before that happens, but i do think that about how I was with my exercise bulimia.
Originally Posted by CiKi90
I know it would probably help if I stopped restricting, but I'm the heaviest I've been in a long time, and I can't seem to talk myself out of trying to lose fat - I keep thinking 'everyone else can do it, why can't I get the body I want?' It shouldnt, but my body and my weight plays a huge role on me. So although I'm still trying to lose, I'm trying not to let it get like last time.
Is it weird that after reading that, I can instantly conjure up every negative thing I've had said to me? And pinpoint the people who put me in this horrible whirlpool lol. Of course, it's my fault too, for letting things get to me.
Haha it wasn't too out there or crazy, it made lots of sense. Sorry for going off on a rant in my reply! And thank you for always reading and replying to my journal!
Attitudes are contagious, make yours worth catching.