I've said it before, and I'll say it again: you're just a little ball of wisdom, lol. I definitely know that you can't really force changes, as far as psychological aspects go, but I can't seem to stop trying. I'm glad things have gotten/are getting better for you though .
I think your progress is amazing, lol. And I can relate to a lot of what you're saying (although I haven't found my way out of the tunnel, quite yet). I actually also used to always make cupcakes and desserts for others, now I'm like "meh, do I have to?" if someone asks, lol. For what it's worth, I think you have a kickass figure, by the way. Definitely looks strong, but feminine at the same time. Is it weird that that's the kind of body I'm aiming towards ? Although it seems like it would take light years for me to get there. *Shrug* Never hurt to aim high!