This is why YB opened this thread: to discuss the way forward from the dead end you arrive to when you cannot snap out of the mindset of having to improve your body.
When I was overweight, it was a relatively simple idea - lose extra weight, feel great.
Now, years after the weight went down from the overweight to normal, there are a few things:
1) every time the weight starts climbing up, and it tries to do so continuously, because the body remembers the overweight state it is not an easy thing. Right now I am 15-17 lbs heavier than when I took the pic someone had referred to. It is hard not to fight to get what you have had back.
2) there is a difference between normal weight and an attractive body. Not the starved-thin body, but a body that shows fitness and vitality
3) Heightened physiological and psychological responses to hunger, to restrictions, to fasting, to particular exercise
4) Ebbs and flows of faith into that next magic workout regimen or dietary regimen that will finally lets you achieve what you want.
Someone at a different stage of fitness may look at my state as desirable, but I also see plenty of people in the stages of fitness that I consider desirable. There is a continuum of improvements, and it is hard to face that you have reached your best when the gap is so wide between the noticeably fit and your own.
Just keep in mind that the attempt here is to find the way out of the maze. Mind creates conflict when it perceives falsehood, so I preserve negative assessment of self because it's true, AND I try to change my way of dealing with it. The truth doesn't have to be mutually exclusive. I can have this body AND be happy about it AND not try to change it any longer. That's the goal.