It takes a long time to undo a life time of programming. When I step back and look at how I look at myself it's really horrific. I have major body dysmorphia. I was looking in the mirror this morning, and all I saw was a body that is an American size 16 (I'm a 6-8). It's totally fucked up. I constantly find myself looking at kids of 14 and being jealous of their figures. I blame the world for making me like this, but it's something deeper within me.
Originally Posted by Leida
Luckily I'm kind of reaching a point where I can see the insanity of these thoughts. It doesn't mean they aren't there, but I'm getting more clarity on them. Now I at least recognise that it's ridiculous for a 31 year old woman to want to have the figure of a teenager. It's helping me as well to recognise that at least I have recovered from an ED, and it doesn't rule my life anymore, though the thoughts still exist.
Leida, can you think of anything that you've overcome in the procress of the last few months, that make the weight gain worthwhile?
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
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