Please don't take this the wrong way. But I read this as that you have basically chosen to sacrifice your health so that you won't have to be fat.
Originally Posted by runnermuddergirl
There are probably millions of women just like you walking around. They look really great on the outside and other women feel jealous and wonder why they can't look like that, too. The truth is that they do not know the health impact of looking like that. Meanwhile, those of us who do know the health impact and aren't willing to make that sacrifice have to bear the brunt of the social impact of your decision. We have to live with the consequences that the culture as a whole looks at us healthy yet not so thin people and tsk-tsks us but looks at you with praise and admiration. It's a little unfair that nobody understands what's really going on out there.
Please don't take that wrong because you're really just caught up in the same vicious thing that the fat girls are caught in, just from the other side. It would take a lot of courage for you to choose to prioritize your health.
(P.S. without having to endure amenorrhea I never had children and never wanted them.)
Female, 5'3", 49, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135 (more or less).
Starting squat: 45lbs. Current squat: 157.5 x 2