Hey Serenity, I totally missed that you had started a journal! The madness is spreading
I'm so sorry that you went through all that stuff when you were younger... what a nightmare. From what I can read though, it doesn't sound like you have an ED anymore? Your writings could be from any woman who is frustrated at not losing weight. Did the "eating a ton" help you in any way? And how are things going without the IUD?
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat