Yes, even in my dream I understood how mindlessly I had done it. So maybe it's the mindlessness, not the aggressiveness, since I have actually become more passive and have stepped back very recently: with food/health and with certain relationships.I wouldn't say something in your life; I'd say something within you. And it looks like your subconscious is telling you there's an easier way! Less severe, or less mindless? (You said you crushed them without thinking).