hey I emailed you btw
Tired eyes, like our tired lives
Zach, do you have some sort of pregnancy fetish I should be concerned about and/or engaging myself in? ...Check your inbox.
Just kidding. I sent you nothing. Unless you want me to... Oh you won't want anything to do with me after you read this journal entry.
Derp, I guess I lied about email being easier...
Saturday, May 25
I'm going to switch time zones half way through today's entry. Just to fuck with you all.
- 9am NY: apple juice, 2 poached eggs, breakfast potatoes (mine and mom's)
- 1pm NY: melon, 2 Paleostix (dried free range beef w/ spices in a collagen casing)
- 8:30pm NY time (5:30 now in LA): made to order carrot beet apple kale cucumber celery juice from Wholefoods. I felt like I could eat a small cow by this point and the juice made it worse
- 6-7pm LA (or 9-10pm NY time. You get it) tuna avocado roll + pieces of seared albacore from Wholefoods; 2 eggs + 1/3 cup pumpkin made into pancakes (cooked in coconut oil) with maple syrup; 2 big spoonfuls of coconut milk ice cream.
BM of questionable quality in the AM (better than none). Still very bloated.
TMI time: Gave myself a fleet enema when I got home. The only other time I've ever done this was in a hotel room in Hawaii after not having a single movement for 12 days. Funny stuff, looking back at my journal from that time I wrote "...Lolz. Absolutely excruciating." Glad to know my award winning sense of humor can be neither blunted nor hindered by a little thing like "excruciating" pain. Anyway, this might not have been as necessary as it was the last time, given that my bowels have been moving along somewhat, but… I will not attempt to explain myself.
Magnesium (400mg until I'm regular again)
- Leg lifts in a chair with my suitcase at the airport. (embarrassing my family like a pro)
- Pushups (10 x 3) At home, not at the airport!
Like I said yesterday, the bowel problems could have been from a multitude of things, travel and dairy being the most significant factors. I still don't know how to deal with travel constipation, but coffee seemed to help.
Regarding dairy, I can definitely say that it does not give me headaches anymore! So I'm no longer having an immune reaction. However, lactose seems to be an issue. In light of this + still trying to find ways to deal with my whacked out gut flora, I'm going to start eating yogurt tomorrow (just a few spoonfuls to start with) since it should be relatively low in lactose. I was eating yogurt daily when I first stopped eating wheat and my stomach was so happy all the time (for the first time in my life) so I'm hoping for a repeat experience. But always expecting the worst <3
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I hear you on all this btw. I used to compare myself to people that I knew barely ate, and put pressure on myself to be like them. I've also run the gauntlet of all the other thoughts you had The majority of people have critical or demanding thoughts that they direct outwards or inwards. You're conscious enough to know that they're not helpful. Feel them, and let them go. They're just thoughts: they're not who you are.
How was your wedding?
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat
I'd get tested and then avoid the pharmaceutical treatments, but go for the much harder homepathic treatments.
Best of luck.
I completely forget that my journal even exists until I come to post my entry. Sorry guys.
EDIT, 1 day later: Where is my head? The wedding was great! I rarely get to see my step sibs (or grandparents or cousins) considering they live on the other side of the country and that my step dad isn't around anymore. We're still close, though, which is great. We try to get out there at least once per year, and I think the last I saw them was Memorial Day last year so we were just about due for a visit anyway
Marie, thank you so much for taking the time to share this with me! Your friend had digestion issues as well? I think the universe is telling me to get tested already... Having spent most of my life in a barn, it is very possible.Originally Posted by MarieGray
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Sunday, May 26
-Slept 1am-6:30am. Weird jetlag.
- Groggy at the end of the day
- 7:30am: 2.5 TBS 2% Greek yoghurt w/ maple syrup, 1/2 dozen blueberry gelatin cubes, watermelon, taste of sheep's milk yogurt.
- 11:30am: 1 cup coconut water, bite of blueberry maple pork sausage (really good, if only it wasn't pork)
- 1pm: ~1/2 lb salmon w/ skin, 1 apple + few slices of mango w/ maple syrup and sea salt, 1 strawberry gelatin cube (much better than the blueberry, made with maple syrup instead of honey this time)
- 3:30pm: another strawberry gelatin cube, a spoonful of yogurt, ~30 g of Kerrygold reserve cheddar. It's dangerous being at my mom's house - nothing to do and too many things to snack on when I'm not even hungry.
- 8pm: chicken thighs + drumstick + some skin (roasted with a little butter and herbs), butternut squash; maple syrup with cocoa powder and sea salt.
- No rumbling or gas after the yogurt! Woo!
- BMs are better!
- But the distention is still terrible.
- 1 hour with my mom's Pilates trainers - worked mostly core and legs
- Sprints (~60 m x 2, ~100 m x 1). Lungs not doing so dandy.
Surprisingly fine. Digestive.. backups... usually cause issues, but not this time!
It must be the pets or the air, but my head is killing me again. Didnít hurt once while I was in NY, but the moment I get back hereÖ It could also be exacerbated by the sprinting because of my asthma, or by my mother's voice - the jury's still out. Anyway, I usually turn my nose up at medicine but I used some steroid-antihistamine spray because it was becoming difficult to function. The headache went away within 20 minutes.
I'm going to stop being so specific with my food intake. The journal started off with the foods I was eating at general times of the day and has evolved into specific measurements at specific times. I don't like being this structured so it's going to stop. I had begun measuring with precision in order to gauge how much I was really eating, but the habit stuck and it's no longer necessary. If you want to hear something rather ridiculous, I had no idea how many calories were in a single bite of anything until I started eating paleo. Um, yeah, no. A "large piece" of this midmorning or a "few bites" of that late evening (at most) will suffice.
Special treats for Zach / anyone interested:
- Tonight's belly - You can see even my upper abdomen is pretty distended (usually it's just the lower). And no, I will not be bothered to pick shit off my floor for you.
- The dress it took 2 people to squeeze me into - This was the only shot where you could really see my BOOBS. I know, you clicked on it and immediately felt a let down, but that is a lot of boob for me, ok? Can we just be happy for me??
Monday, May 27
- Slept 10pm-7am
- Exhausted again all day. Now I remember why I never used to exercise: I can barely lift my arms.
- B: Carton 2% Greek yogurt + 1 large mango + maple syrup + handful chocolate chips (Guittard) + sea salt = Heaven?
- L: Hermosa Beach Fair: Lamb gyros w/ tzatziki and rice
- S: A couple of Chocolate Chip Pumpkin Cake Cookies | Civilized Caveman Cooking Creations. Used maple syrup instead of honey, mostly rice flour (a few TBS coconut flour) and Guittard chocolate chips. Holy mother of god. Couple sips of coffee.
- D: Bar and grill: mussels in a serrano pesto broth; tuna tartare w/ wasabi tobiko, ginger, and avocado.
- S: few more cookies What?? I'm on vacation…
- Liquids: coconut water (2 cups), carrot juice (~ 1 cup)
- BMs much better. Somewhat loose, but at least I'm having them.
- Bloat still terrible.
- Mg (400mg)
- Zinc (50 mg) this is my third time taking it - I took one while in NY.
- Dicked around in the backyard with the dog: running around, jumping squats across the lawn, back walkovers until I became weak and fell on my head.
- Headstands - held
- Pushups: 20 x 2
I did not sprint today and I did not get a headache. Problem solved? We'll see.
The Hermosa Beach street fair, or Fiesta Hermosa, is a semiannual arts and crafts fair (held Memorial Day weekend and Labor Day weekend). Mi madre, the dog, sometimes my sister, and I attend each year as regular customers of a few vendors. My mom apparently cannot live with a certain lotion she finds there (they had a new one this year: tobacco. Sounds crazy? It smelled amazing) and my sister is fond of a jalapeno jam maker. I usually find a piece of jewelry or an art piece, but really, I'm in it for the lamb gyros:
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I'm not sure what rock my sister was hiding under today, however, uncaring, I called up my uncle who was happy to take her place.
We made our best attempt to beat the rush but ended up having all but 10 minutes to ourselves before the crowds poured in. I find crowds enjoyable when we have the dog with us; most people become overly friendly when they see his crystal clear, blue eyes shining out from under black fur.
I wasn't blown away by many of the vendors this year. Much the jewelry and clothing were underwhelming, until I came across the vendor who sold me this:
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I have an obsession with clocks. I'm not sure where it stems from, but watches, jewelry, paintings, anything with old clock pieces steal my heart. This piece was pretty spectacular: the back / base is from a 19th century French pocket watch with some of the original mechanisms are still in place. The rest of the pieces he thinks are from the 70's. I also picked up some beaded scarves and, of course, my plate of gyros.
This vendor also caught my eye. I would have bought a blend if my spice cabinet at home wasn't already overflowing. They also had teas.
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Had dinner at a nice bar and grill with my grandmother. The pesto mussels and wasabi tobiko were great distractions from her backhanded compliments.
Anyway, I would have run around more with the dog but then this happened:
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And I would have done more body weight exercises, but then this happened:
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Cute photos, love it!
My spice cabinet is overflowing, too ... I love spicy foods soo much; Keeps things interesting =) Oh, and does your grandma give "Grandma Burns'' (backhanded compliments) too? My grandma is the best at that, and they sting!
What kinda doggy is that?! It's hard to tell from that angle, but he's so cute! Looks like you're having a good time over there ;D