It's good to be reminded that even people who are not fat, who are not women, are handicapped by the feelings that they are not worthy. The pain is probably the same.
Originally Posted by eKatherine
I've thought a lot about what made it possible for me to finally get a grip on my weight and I am thinking now that it was when I realized that the binging wasn't so much a loss of control as a twisted way of punishing myself that I started to have more control over it. As a child, I felt constant criticism, for my weight and for a million other things. Once I moved away from home, I got a lot of positive reinforcement from professors and bosses. But I could always be the loser I knew I was by being fat. I don't know what happened at 49. A mid-life crisis? My daughter going through puberty and getting the exact same body I did? A gradual weaning off of psychosis-inducing grains, lol?
Now I look at my rumpled skin on my belly and upper arms and think "Eh, I look good with clothes on. Maybe in a year or two I'll look better naked. Or not, whatever." I'm lucky to be married to a man who couldn't keep his hands off me no matter what I weighed. I suppose that makes it easier.
Katherine, that's one hell of a bikini body, especially for an old lady! You give me hope.
CW-125, part calorie counting, part transition to primal
GW- Goals are no longer weight-related