07-20-2013, 06:03 PM
Stayed up to 2 am last night. I was just so angry at everything, couldn't sleep.
Woke up with a killer headache in my forehead; behind my eyes. I was still in bed when the arguing started.
Dad came over, and Mum asked him to sign the divorce papers. He just...blatantly refused. I think he's in denial that it's happening. Mum started yelling at him, how he had no right to do this, it was her life, and just to bl**dy sign it. But he won't. Just won't.
Now, I'm not a crybaby. I don't cry. Perhaps on average, about once a year. I'm more of a 'bottler'. Just bottle it all up inside and ignore it. But eventually it does come out, someway or another. So I just stayed in bed and sobbed for half an hour. It was pretty gross really, as I completely soaked my pillow.
My brother came in, advised me just to distance myself from it. It's their problem, their cr*p, not ours. I couldn't speak at this point, just listened. He told me to just focus on my life. What I want to do. Stop worrying about them, they can fix their own problems.
I just don't know what to think, what to do.
Anyway, away from the soppy stuff:
B: 1 hardboiled egg, 2 small sardines (my omega 3 and 6's are out of whack, so I'm trying to eat more fish) and some leftover roast kumara's.
07-22-2013, 01:33 AM
Good news! According too paleotrack.com my omega 6/3 ratio is 2.4:1. That means it's in the green zone, which means that it's healthy!
It's probably due to the 2 tablespoons of chia seeds and 2 sardines, plus quite a few walnuts.
I'm trying to make a chia seed gel/porridge, but it just won't thicken!
Anyway, I'm rushing ahead:
I woke up with another splitting headache in my forehead. It continued all day, but moved into the front, right side of my head. I'm wondering if it's caused by stress? I got startled by a dog today, and at the exact moment of the actual scare it came back with a huge amount of force. I thought I'd been hit in the head with hammer.
Breakfast: 1 HB egg, 30g of 'fudge', 2 slices of bacon, 1 sardine. Quite a big breakfast, actually.
Lunch: Um. Well, I didn't really have lunch. I just grazed on cheese and walnuts. And a kiwifruit.
Dinner: ground beef, 1 sardine, 1 tablespoon of chia seeds.
plus a cup of tea.
The chia seeds I got today, along with some dandelion root tea. I'm hoping both will help my acne.
07-22-2013, 01:15 PM
My Grandfather passed away at around 6:30 this morning. As well as having terminal cancer, he just recently developed pneumonia, which is most likely what did it.
07-22-2013, 03:32 PM
Oh Traveller, sorry for your loss. Blessings to you and your family.
07-22-2013, 04:01 PM
07-22-2013, 04:17 PM
Breakfast: chia gel/goop. 1 kiwi, and some walnuts. 1 cuppa.
I've been snacking on cheese and walnuts. The calories are really stacking up, but I'm just so down so I keep going back for more.
Anyway, got 2 hours of training coming up at 12pm!
Last week I just about collapsed, so this time I made sure to eat. The chia I think will help, as it's supposed to be a great source of energy.
Amazingly, no headache today!
I went to bed last night at about 10:20pm, but barely slept at all. I was still awake at midnight, but I must've dosed off, because I was woken at 6:45am with the bad news about Grandad. Got up at 7:30, and no headache. That's a plus, I guess.
The chia seeds are also fixing my permanent constipation. I have a BM about once or twice a week. Today I've gone 2-3 times.
Okay, okay, Too Much Information.
Last edited by Traveller; 07-22-2013 at 04:20 PM.
07-22-2013, 11:12 PM
Well, I'm sitting here hungry while the rest of the family are scarfing down six pieces of pizza, each.
I'm only very mildly tempted to join them, but they all gave me a heck of a time trying to convince me to ''loosen up'', because it's ''not good for you're health if you're too strict''. I tried to explain that my system has been really chaotic lately, and that I'm just waiting until things settle down, but...
I don't know, maybe I should have some, just because it's making everyone upset for no good reason.
07-23-2013, 07:11 PM
I tried some non-homegonised milk today, and I'm a complete and utter convert.
I put it in my tea, and my scrambled eggs and it made the taste sooooo much richer!
Also, I logged all my food into paleotrack, and my omega 6:3 ratio is 1:1!!!
My potassium and sodium ratio is not as good, being 2.7:1, but it's not terrible. And I've still got dinner later on, so I'll just a large-ish serving of broccoli.
Last edited by Traveller; 07-23-2013 at 07:23 PM.
07-25-2013, 09:22 PM
Had the funeral today. It's my first family-member funeral. Actually, it's the first funeral I can remember.
It was...well, as expected. There were about 50 people. The reason for the small number is that some people couldn't make it because they themselves are battling a severe illness, and also because my grandfather has outlived most of his friends. In fact, he's outlived all of them except two. So.
I met some of my cousins, and great-uncles and aunts, all of whom I've never met. That was interesting.
RIP, Grandad. You'll be missed.
07-25-2013, 11:24 PM
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, as well as all the other stuff going on. I hope that things look up soon.