These boots aren't made for walk in.
1am - 7am: 6 hours.
Food / Hunger / Cravings:
Skipped breakfast again. Was actually hungry, but didn't feel like eating anything. No appetite. Then I wasn't hungry again, but once lunch came I felt a compulsion to eat.
7.00am - Coffee w/ milk
10.00am - Coffee w/ milk
A few teas with milk, maple syrup and sugar.
12.45pm - Lunch: Rice (a lot), cooked in broth, with canned wild salmon.
5.30pm - Dinner: can of wild salmon, 3 or 4 potatoes, olive oil (a lot), desert: 500gs greek yogurt, 200gs blueberries, with maple syrup.
Ate a lot tonight (the Greek yo has a lot of cals) but I figure I haven't been eating much these last few days so I needed a refeed. I've been eating way too much salmon though: I've been craving it, probably cos it's a source of protein that's easy to digest. I find it easier on my stomach than eggs. But still - enough is enough! Time for minced beef and liver.
The fatty part of the tinned salmon... seriously.! What a random thing to crave.
Mg-B6 complex x2
Vit D - Calcium x 2
Vit C x 2
Aspirin x 2
Vit E (topical)
glucosamine sulphate x 1
Alfalfa x 2
Energy and mood:
Blah. Still feeling withdrawn and unsociable. Don't feel like talking to anyone, or hanging out. Did my sprints fasted, and ran ridiculously slowly, for me. Didn't have the energy to run faster.
Saying that: I think this is one of my "energy crashes". But, wow... it's different to before. When I used to crash it would come bundled with insomnia, depression, extreme fatigue, and binging. Then it just became extreme fatigue. Now it seems like my crashes are just being vaguely tired and wanting to be alone. This is huge progress! I kind of can't believe it.
Funny how a person can be so happy about feeling unsociable
Digestion: 3 good BMs. This keeps happening lately! Taking it as a good sign. Still getting the runs something, but for the most part my GI health is better than ever.
Weight loss: This has to be the slowest weight loss of all time. I think I've lost a bit off my waist and hips since two weeks ago, but the bloating makes it hard to tell. Haven't lost anything off my thighs, which is disappointing, considering I'm actually working out now.
The thing is that I actually look fine everywhere except my stomach and hips. They're disproportionate to the rest of me. I know part of that is the bloating, but what to do?
Sinus: Nose started running like crazy the second I went outdoors. For the first time in my life I thought to check the pollen count. It was high. I wonder if there's a correlation?
Lips: have been great for the last few days, then as soon as I ate the yogurt they chapped and peeled! I wonder if that's indicative of how I process yogurt? The skin on your lips is the same as the skin in your gut, so I have a theory that the state of your lips reflects your gut health. Although, saying that, my lips have been fine (quite full) and my gut has been bloated so...
Thyroid: Felt a pressure in that part of my throat from the early afternoon. Wish I knew what it meant...
Bloating: Very gassy in the morning. Took that as a good sign, that maybe my body was releasing the bloat... but oo such luck! It got better in the late afternoon, but now it's distended again. I did have a lot of food this evening though, so there's hope yet.
Spent the day working on a tough project. I'm not hating it, but it was very draining.
I am hating where I live right now. At the risk of sounding like a cow: I can't stand my alcoholic housemate. I hate being around him. I feel bad for him, but it's gotten to the point where he makes my skin crawl. I'll stay here til October, and then I'll move... again! Hopefully to a different country this time.
I had a relalistaion over the last few days: for all the years I thought I was fat, I was actually just focusing on my stomach, which was distended. I've had this problem for a long time, but never realised it was bloating. Part of the reason I would binge would be in reaction to my weight.
I really want to don't want to go through my life having to eliminate food groups. There's something in my gut I need to heal. If feels like this is the next part of the journey... just not sure what steps to take. Maybe now that I'm not binging it will gradually heal? Hmm.
This is why I love California:
Seen outside San Diego...
Last edited by YogaBare; 06-01-2013 at 02:00 PM.
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat