Raising Body Temp
Entry Twelve: Tired
Writing late cos' I was in transit last night.
Mammoth sleep: 10.30pm - 9.30am. Then took a nap at 3pm - 4pm.
Woke up at 36.5C, sat around 36.6C all day.
Energy and mood:
I woke up feeling depressed. I haven't felt that in quite a while. Like: "not-able-to-get-out-of-bed Depressed". And exhausted. I couldn't muster the energy to get up to pee / make coffee / eat.
At 2ish I eventually crawled out of bed and made food. Food usually makes me feel better (which is why I've been so addicted to it) but after eating (ground beef, potatoes) I felt even worse, and I went back to sleep. I had to catch a flight in the evening and it was a struggle to make it.
I crash frequently enough: sometimes worse than others. Every now and again I collapse and sleep for 36 hours. I think the longest I slept for was 48 hours...!
Writing this down, I can see how intimately linked mood and energy are. I feel depressed when I don't have energy. And usually a crash is preceded by a binge. But I didn't binge this time. I did eat a lot the night before.
And how much of it is stress? I was doing well until I got my results last Friday: I was tired, but I was pushing through it and doing stuff. Then I got caught up in the whirlwind of stress and have been on the edge of Oz ever since.
I'm changing the focus of the journal again. I keep applying protocols to improve my life without acknowledging my consistent lack of energy. Then I write that I'm exhausted, and I blame the protocol, but the reality is that the exhaustion was always there.
I'm going to observe the correlation between my energy, mood, diet/hunger, sleep, temperature and stress. I will continue to wear warm clothes, and chart my temperature, but will reduce the import of body temp. While I think Steve is great, he's a bit tunnel visioned. I want to take a holistic approach now. Supporting thyroid health through diet, meditating for stress, walking and yoga for gentle exercise... Suggestions welcome!
On another note, I'm back in Ireland again, but this time for a party to mark the anniversary of my friend who died of cancer last year. The party is tomorrow. I don't want to go.
In addition, I'm staying with my mum, who found out last week that she has a lump on her spine. It's so hard to see her suffering like this. And no one gives her any support: the rest of my family just take from her, which means she leans heavily on me. Which is fine, but it's frustrating that I can't do anything except try to force her to eat by cooking her favourite meals.
Well... at least I'm happy with my hair!