Originally Posted by ombat
No, you're on the money. I'm the kind of person who doubts the validity of their own emotions, and tortures themselves by seeing things from all perspectives. It's left me privy to a lot of bullying, sexual harassment, abusive friendships etc. In the last eight years I thought I had broken the pattern, but during my yoga training my teacher was harassing me (true story), and it was only at the very end that I realised that it had happened, again.
When I've attempted to break this tendency, and "not take shit" from people, I've generally fallen into a self pitying mode, which is also not helpful.
I think what's different now is that I'm actually feeling angry, instead of reacting out of self pity. The anger is being birthed from a place of self respect. That place says: "Whatever. No man is an island, but I already have a lot of bridges. I give a lot to my relationships: I make people laugh, and I make them feel loved. I'm not asking for the world in return: all I want is that I can be bare." I'm so used to giving more than getting, and being who the other person wants me to be, that the concept of being open and receiving is really hard for me. But that's where the self respect comes in. And I think you're right that the anger will dissipate (as the self-belief grows).
I use to think that walking away was an immature response, but I'm finding it extremely empowering and it's changed people's behaviour towards me better than explaining myself ever did. I'm seeing now that walking away gives the other person space to feel if they want my friendship or not. There is that fear of rejection implicit in it, but I know deep down that I will be okay.
I'm glad that you're sharing on MDA! In a weird way, I think that this forum is a transitional place between the inside of my head, and the real world. It gives thoughts 'life', support and space to grow, before they are implemented in reality. Seems to be making things a lot clearer. Seems like you're having that experience too?
Originally Posted by PaleoMom
HOnestly, the fatigue is nothing new. I go through phases where I feel great, and then I crash. This hasn't been a crash as such (apart from today - I feel like shit) but definitely a mark down in energy. So I can't really blame the temperature thing: I was about to and then realised that I went through the same thing when I started "eating a ton". It's part of my pattern.
I really dream of a day when I can have all the energy to do all the things I want to do.
Last edited by YogaBare; 09-26-2013 at 11:12 AM.
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