Sleep - Six hours last night. Unsurprising... but still annoying. That's only 10 hours over two nights. I'm going to bed at 9pm tonight...!
On the upside, as I was drifting off my feet and hands were like little irons: reputed to be a sign that the metabolic rate is picking up! I've been having really vivid dreams since I started this overeating campaign too. Ray Peat says that's a low blood sugar thing, but that doesn't make sense to me. I'm eating piles of carbs right now.
Even though I woke up with plenty of energy, when I went out to do my sprints I failed miserably. I jogged to the park, but only managed two thirds of my first sprint before my legs started to give way. It was really weird. I managed to do a second sprint, but after that I was finished. Not tired - just felt like I was totally unfit... as if I was grossly overweight and it was my first time running.
I don't know if this is cos' I was reading Matt Stone's book last night, and he emphasises not doing any physical activity. I can be very impressionable... Or maybe I'm genuinely tired? Or it's still the impact of the bottle of wine from Sat night? I don't know, but today I was ravenous. (That often happens when I'm underslept).
I've decided to do the calorie counting. It's easier, and that way I can keep track of my nutrients. Today's cals came in quite a lot higher than I've been planning... 4464cals...fat:212, carbs: 507.6, protein: 180.3.
Ground beef, curshed tomatoes, Coconut oil, Coconut cream, Coconut water, eggs, avocado (which I'm afraid of now, thanks to Ray Peat..! But I had a some lying around that needed to be eated), bananas, mangoes, honey, white potatoes, seaweed, mustard, a few tea spoons of sugar, raspberries.
Should I be putting a limit to how much I eat? That just seems so excessive.
I got two unusual cravings just before lunch: for mustard, and seaweed. I never eat or crave either of these. THe iodine in seaweed stimulates the thyroid, but I didn't know anything about mustard, so I looked it up and found out that mustard speeds up your metabolism.
I wonder if I'm craving foods that rev your metabolism because my metabolic rate is rising? If "we are what we eat", maybe we also eat what we are?
Saying that, I was also getting cravings for crap. I kept thinking about cookies, Kitkats, easter eggs... Matt Stone would say to give in to those cravings but tbh I just can't face the thought of how shit those foods make me feel. The honeymoon is over with them, and I know that I'm just craving them because my body wants a specific nutrient. I ate three mangoes after lunch, and then three bananas with honey. The cravings didn't go, even though I felt so full I wanted to puke. Not until much later, when I ate coconut cream with raspberries. Maybe it was the coconut I needed? Or the feeling of something sweet and creamy?
And at the end of the day:
I actually feel like today has been a "binge" day. I've had that binging mentality, even though I didn't actually eat any junk foods.
Contrary to the focused direction of this journal, the quote at the top is more apt to how I'm feeling right now. I'm doubting if I'm doing the right thing. Feels like it doesn't matter what road I take - I always end up in the same place. Am I just using this "experiment" to justify my addiction?
(I know the quote is slightly different, but whatever )