Thanks so much for the good wishes everyone! It's through a website and the company hasnt even downloaded my CV yet, so hopefully they havent already found the person...
Had the weirdest experience today. I was lifting in the gym and, remember that PT who told me I was fat? Well he was there when I walked in today and gave no sign of recognising me, even when I said "hi". Then I was doing my squats and after a while he came over and out of the blue told me how fantastic I look.!.! He proceeded to tell me how beautiful my face was, but that my body looked great too - "Look at your abs!" he said. I was standing there with 30kg on my neck and I thought my jaw would hit the floor. I wasnt sure if I should remind him that two weeks ago he told me I needed to lose weight...
Isnt that weird?!! From one extreme to the other...
He saw my disbelief and he said "You dont feel that yourself?" Even aside from the weirdness of this particular person complimenting me, getting a compliment about my body felt wrong - I'd just been looking in the mirror, hating my thighs (my abs do look good I have to say ) My self esteem about my body has gotten so bad that I cant take compliments. A few people told me I looked sexy on Saturday night, and I looked at them like they were weirdos, haha! I actually think all this knowledge about body fat, muscle mass etc has made me more critical...
But I had this realisation last week that what you fight to get, you fight to keep, and I dont want to keep fighting myself.
Squats: 15kg x 15, 20kg x 14; 14.
Deadlift: 20kg x 15, 30kg x 12; 10.
Clean and jerk: 15kg x 12; 12; 12.
Lunges: 20kg x 14; 14; 14.
Walk: one hour.
Feel amazing today! So happy and full of love The good night's sleep was amazing, but I think it's mostly down to the Progesterone... wont be coming off that again any time soon.
Oh, also - I'm still in communication with RP! I'm asking him loads of questions, I'll give you guys the update in a few days.
Originally Posted by Nstocks
Yes - I wanted to ask you guys how you're getting on with the raw thyroid! What time of day are you taking it? It made me too tired taking it during the day (it lowers stress hormones and my cortisol is really high now) so I take it before bed now and that seems to be working.
Originally Posted by Graycat
Gray, did you come up?
I'm glad you know what I mean about the shift... how is it manifesting for you? I feel like I'm letting go of things. I realise that I made exercise kind of an eating disorder for a month or so, and now I've given up trying to control my weight and I'm just going to take advice, even though I always feel I should be punishing myself.
Nstocks, I think you should get your ferritin checked. Also, I asked RP about the dreams and he said it's a combo of GI difficulties and low blood sugar increasing the production of serotonin and adrenaline...
Last edited by YogaBare; 09-16-2013 at 01:21 PM.
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