You guys are so unbelievably sweet. I went to bed after I wrote all that, feeling pretty embarrassed, and not expecting anyone to reply to my ramblings. I don't want to be this annoying person who just vents on MDA and then people feel obligated to reply...
So I was really pleasantly surprised to wake up this morning and find what you all had written. Honestly, thank you.
Just want to clarify that I probably sound in worse shape than I actually am. I don't feel remotely depressed... it's just that a layer has lifted from my eyes, and I'm seeing with more honesty. It's raw, and as I said: I don't really know where to go from here. I feel frustrated yes, but I don't feel desperate or lost.
Thanks Tasha <3 And likewise. Hopefully I'll be living in the States some day and we can all organise a Gummibear meet up
Originally Posted by namelesswonder
It was strange, but as I was writing, I suddenly realised that many people would understand. I did think of you, and a post you made on Gray's journal recently about your weight. Maybe most people have this deep sense of inadequacy, but for whatever reasons, with me it is close to the surface.
Originally Posted by brooke.S.
Thanks for connecting. I appreciate our contact!
Originally Posted by Derpamix
I look forward to our chats Derp
Originally Posted by Derpamix
You're right. I want to be less obsessed and neurotic, but I don't know how. I think a big thing to help me would be getting away from the computer, as it makes it too easy for me to be anti-social, self absorbed, and wrapped up in my head. It takes a lot of will to live a balanced life...
And thank you. You're too sweet.
Aw Gray, thanks for saying that! And it means a lot to know that some of what I say helps.
Originally Posted by Graycat
Oops - I said the wrong thing: sideways stick figure! Turn your head on its side and you'll see a stick man: OK
Yes Batman, and that's why I love you
Originally Posted by ombat
I don't know. It's ingrained into me that I have to be perfect. That involves being all of those things to other people, but because I am never perfect I believe don't deserve it for myself. ANd then I attract people into my life who also don't believe I deserve it.
You're one person on here who I'm sure I'll meet in the flesh... when we both live in CA again
Originally Posted by diene
Thanks Di. I hope you know how much I appreciated your message yesterday. Do write more. And thanks for sharing all the stuff about your ED yesterday: I'm sorry I didn't reply to that in detail but your insight (about never overcoming it) is interesting. That was kind of the revelation that I had: that I had removed the behaviours, but the inner cause was still there, and the ED is just a trigger for me to eject all the pain and frustration I feel with the world.
This talk feels good though, and I feel like the brutal honesty helps more than anything.
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat