Writing a little early today, cos' I'm going out tonight.
Well, this morning I had a panic attack! It's the second one I've had this month. The experience was actually quite interesting.
Nothing in my external world triggered it. I slept pretty well last night, had done about two hours work, and just got off the phone with my colleague, L. Yesterday was a big food day, so I wasn't very hungry: I'd had two pieces of cheese, and some coffee with gelatine. But after getting off the phone with L, I started to think about food a lot. Suddenly I was getting severe cravings for red meat, but I was flooded with exhaustion and agoraphobia: I was afraid to go to the local butchers cos I would have to speak to people. (I know that sounds bad - I used to get like that a lot, but I've mostly overcome it.) I decided to cycle to the supermarket and buy steak. But, right before I walked out the door, I realised I was having a panic attack. I dumped my backpack, and started running. I just ran and ran until I got to the park, then I ran and sprinted, then sat in the sun. After 10 mins of deep breathing I walked to the swings and did some swinging. This almost instantly calmed me down! I did some practice chin ups, some jumping on the rebounder, then headed back home. I felt fine for the rest of the day, and went swimming in the avo.
What happened to me today is the closest I've come to observing that my binging and anxiety must be due to hormonal imbalances. This literally came out of nowhere, and gentle exercise (the swinging) righted me. I've tried to look up the benefits of swinging, to no avail. Anyone know anything?!
In hindsight I can see that I used to get anxiety attacks quite a lot, and I would cope by binging. The food must have relieved the stress hormones. I consider it really positive to see that I was about to use food to calm me down, and then I instinctually turned to exercise instead. SO much more constructive!
Never a dull moment
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat