I agree about reincarnation: I just see it in a more vague way. If we are made of energy, and this energy is constantly being recycled, then maybe at another time we were several people all at once.
Originally Posted by diene
Well.... all I can say is it really sounds like you've made up your mind! There's no real easy time to bring something like that up. But... the sooner you do it, the sooner you can go through all the break up stages and be ready to move on?
I used to be a scientist but now I'm a lawyer. The legal profession sucks, and i hate it.
Yeah, I definitely don't want to spend the rest of my life in a place that I hate. That is just too sad. My greatest fear is that I will one day realize that I failed to pursue my dreams and just settled for something that I didn't really want because it was easy or convenient or because I was too much of a coward. But that is not really the kind of person that I am, and I don't think that it will happen to me. But sometimes I wonder. I think old age has a way of defeating one's spirit. There was a fire in me when I was younger that appears to have burnt out. And sometimes I'm afraid of what I'm becoming without it.
Your motivation is that you are doing a job you hate, in a place you hate, to be with a guy you don't want to be with. No wonder your fire is burning low <3
I'm familiar with that burn out feeling... believe me. I feel your pain! I think it comes from disappointments, and the feeling that life is beating you down. Lack of control is also a big one for me. But sometimes all is takes is for one little thing to change, and that fire gets reignited. Things like support, and beauty, and hope. If we're not happy where we are, we need to believe that there is something better. And honestly Ser, if you're missing every aspect of the holy trinity (right relationship, right place, right purpose), being happy and passionate is a monumental effort.
That's great that you are aware of all that - it's a huge step. Maybe you feel that one of the only things you have to offer is doing things for other people (not the case btw)? It might explain why you choose your particular relationship.
Originally Posted by CiKi90
I'm definitely not opposed to psychedelics, but honestly I wouldn't recommend them for you. People who suffer from anxiety don't do so well on very powerful drugs. You have to relinquish control of your mind completely, and that's very stressful for someone who is already wound up. How do you do on dope, as an example?
For what it's worth, I consider you already a deep and insightful person, and I don't think you need hallucinogens to get the knowledge you want. See Zoe's response below...
This. There are so many alternatives to having deep, profound experiences within yourself. Meditation can be like that. Another example on Derp's journal is astral projection (not that I recommend this one particularly).
Originally Posted by zoebird
Zoe, what do you mean by suspension?
You say the sweetest things <3
Originally Posted by ombat
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