So. Long story short. I am 41. I have been smoking on and off since I was 16. I gave up for both of my pregnancies and for stints in between for as short as 6 months and the longest stint was 3 years given up. That was the last time I had hypno.

My smoking is very strongly tied to my drinking.

Went last week and have been smoke free and drink free for a whole week. Have been "failing" at primal due to this awful cycle I have been in.

Really just posting this cause I had to get it out there. Can't tell any of my friends or family because they don't believe I can do it.

This is for my girls. So they will know that I cared enough to get the job done. Now I just have to hope that by turning things around I can minimise any damage that has been done.