Thanks Mudflinger. I think he's pretty freakin' fantastic
Today's mission: EAT MORE. For these two weeks I have had two days at 1100-1200 calories. Um, no. This isn't right. Yeah, yeah, fat adapted, whatever. My instincts say it's wrong when my BMR is 2221 and my TDEE is something like 2800 or some shit like that. Why am I eating so little? Well, who the hell knows. I'm not hungry. I go to the kitchen, make a good serving of food, and eat about half before I am too full to take another bite. Right now it was two eggs, about 2 ounces of sirloin and two spears of asparagus with flax seeds sprinkled on top (I fit these in wherever I can to get more Omega 3, plus I like CRUNCH)
Got about half way through before the "full bell" was blaring. I am truly afraid this is going to hurt me in the long run. The ever looming "starvation mode" scares the bajeezus out of me. I'm afraid my body is going to shut down, weight loss is going to come to a screeching halt and I am going to fail. Again. So, I don't know what to do. I've never, in my entire history, EVER felt like I couldn't eat. Unless I was violently ill, the will to eat passed the full bell has always been apparent. What the hell is going on.
I keep seeing posts and articles about the danger of eating below one's BMR. Welp, I'm way freaking below. Now it's all about TDEE. When I think about eating the amount to equal 2000-2500 calories, I actually feel sick. I just don't know how to do it. Maybe my body will regulate after a few more weeks. I've never wished for my appetite to come back, but right now, I'm searching for it.
The process is simple: Free your mind, and your ass will follow.