I don't know if you want advice on this, but we talked about the moving in with your friend option on AIM, and honestly, I think it would be a good move. It doesn't mean you have to break up with your boyfriend permanently, but I think it would make him see that you don't need him, you are your own person, and he can't take you for granted and expect you to take it.
You're such a sweet girl, and I hope you're doing alright.
Btw, get the job in the club if you have to, but if I was you I'd honestly consider trying to get some work as a fitness model. It would be less... intimidating than working at a club, and I bet it would be good for your confidence. Check out something like yoga journal - they're always looking for young models. I can give you advice on getting into this, if you need it. xx
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat