I like ranch flavored stuff, so sometimes I'll put those spices (lemon, dill, garlic, onion, salt, parsley, pepper) on veggies and roast them like that. Mayo, though ... ugh, I hate it too. Always have. If something calls for mayo, I sub plain yogurt, always.
I usually don't mess with my steaks by putting anything on them, unless they are cheap cuts. Burgers, though, I love putting swiss and mushrooms and caramelized onions, yeaah.
I was wondering, today, about caloric density of foods. What if everything we knew about the calorie content of foods were wrong? I know that it's measured, but what if my personal knowledge of calories was totally wrong? I mean, I avoided so many foods just because of the density of them, or the high fat content of certain things. But what if I didn't know any of that, and there was no way to tell how many calories were in different foods -- what would people rely on to judge how much they should eat? I mean, their stomachs and hunger levels, of course. I just realize that I pay attention to my hunger levels very little, and instead pay attention to the calorie content of things first and foremost, followed by macros, followed by micros, followed by ingredient lists (if any.) this led me to buying a low fat ice cream yesterday without realizing it had soybean oil in it, and I wondered if I hadn't seen the low calorie count and low fat number, if I would have still bought it: I know I wouldn't have. I'm just so stuck in my ways though, that I can't ignore the calories and solely go on nutritional content! I try, but I will almost always go for the lower calorie option.
Another thought: I have been cold lately. During my workout yesterday, my butt fell asleep, and my toes started tingling. My nose is always cold, too, like a little puppy. I have an anxious habit of holding my breath, and I feel like this is what is causing my circulation to be so poor. I try to breathe more deeply when I remember, but it still pretty much sucks.
I am supposed to be on a nice walk in the park right now. Instead, I am watching the most boring RTS game ever invented. I am supposed to be spending time with my friends visiting from California, but of course, they never messaged me back or anything. Then again, aren't we always doing exactly what we are supposed to be doing, since everything happens for a reason? I'm having a hard time believing that right now. Oh well. At least my nails look nice.
Your still starving yourself and no just because you have to watch your bf play games doesnt mean there is a reason.
Take more control of your life, you have the power to change everything. You seem to realize it but you arent doing much about it.
Not trying to be mean.
I honestly do realize that something has to change in my life, and soon. I just haven't figured out a way to change things in my favor. I feel kind of stalemated in my life, I try to do something different and it never works out for me. But, maybe I'll get it right someday.
You will figure it out.
Saturday, June 8
2am-10:30am. Woke up at 8am briefly.
Still no Aloe Vera
Orange-Vanilla Hookah today!
Matcha Green tea powder (putting this under supps now) -- ~1tsp
Gelatin -- 1 envelope
Leisure day: Walk around the Art Festival ~1.5 mi
Didn't feel like doing anything else... (hope I'm not losing steam!)
B: Coffee/almond milk/matcha/stevia. Some grapes and a bite of st. nectaire cheese and baby swiss cheese. (from bf's plate)
L: Gelatin/coffee/egg whites/almond milk/2tsp sugar. ~250g cantaloupe, ~17g prosciutto, ~28g smoked salmon.
S: 1c 0% Greek Yogurt, baby carrots. Lemon juice/matcha/water/stevia.
D: 1 can boneless/skinless sardines in water, 1 softboiled egg, greens, olives, tomatoes, mustard.
S: 1c 0% Greek yogurt, freeze-dried mixed fruit, 2 small bananas, some cherries, 1tsp sugar. A cup of almond milk. And then, 2 more cups of greek yogurt with 1tsp of mac nut oil and sugar. oops ...
Drinks: coffee, almond milk, water, tea. looots of water.
Cravings: The Art Fest had plenty of horrible foods around, and some things smelled really good, but there was hardly anything I could justify eating there, and the thought of rancid oils, gluten, and soy causing me to have a depressed mood later helped me to steer clear of it all. I did have a bite of my bf's kielbasa (w/o bun), but I didn't even taste the soft pretzel he had, even though I love pretzels. They don't love me back.
Calories: ~1700. >_< that's a lot
Thought/Revelation: Derp and Zach were chatting about nutritiondata.com to see what their micros look like on a day-to-day basis. Since I have a cron-o-meter account, I decided to enter my food intake from yesterday, and did so again today. My diet is probably pretty consistently deficient in certain vitamins and minerals, which leads me to only 1 conclusion: I need to incorporate organ meats into my diet. I picked up some chicken livers at the store yesterday and looked at them, but put them back. They're just intimidating to me, having never eaten or cooked one before in my life. I really want to nourish my body, though, so next time, I will definitely pick some up. If I don't like them, they were ridiculously cheap and high quality, so I can afford to do some trial & error with some recipes.
Hair: Laser treatment has not ridded my legs of hair just yet, but maybe it's growing a bit slower. There are no red marks on my skin, like last time, though.
Nails: Broke down and did my nails today despite them being so thin. It's a special occasion, I can't help it!
Body: I drank some salted lemon water yesterday, and I think this caused me to retain water more than usual. I don't think I should do that anymore... It makes me feel gross about my body.
Digestion: Not as great without the aloe, even though I took 1 extra magnesium cap. I was also bloated today, but not terribly.
Energy: Not awesome today.
I'm just really feeling like I want a change in my life. I think I've grown so much as a person, and I'm still in the exact same lifestyle as I was four years ago. My anniversary has made me remember old times, and how much I've grown and changed as a person. I need something new in my life, because something just feels like it's missing. I don't really know how to tell this to my SO, though, since I know he will take it personally, even though it has nothing to do with him. I don't want to break up with him and chop all my hair off and do something drastic with my life. I just ... want to move into a different house, or get a dog, or a job, or go back to school. Something that will take up my time a little more. I am just lost on how to go about it without hurting my lover.
That being said, today was a decent day. Tomorrow should be even better, though, since we have some fun stuff planned. I think my bf is getting sick though, so I hope it clears up by tonight!
Last edited by CiKi90; 06-08-2013 at 11:19 PM. Reason: had moar foodz
A bit more than a year ago I needed to change up the routines of life too. I chose to go back to school and get my masters degree. A great decision it has been. Meeting many new people across many professions, a networking paradise. Will be working at it for about two more years.
I noticed over the past year that my mental game in school wasn't what it used to be when I got my bachelors or even during various technical certifications. I've heard some suggest that a persons overall health has a direct correlation to our ability to perform academically; they came up just short of saying being fat makes school harder, but that's the notion I believe they were trying to give me. Not sure I believe that, regardless, looking forward to attacking the coming semester healthier than the previous.
Follow my progress at ->Journal: My Body Revival
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What do you think your deficient in? You definitely dont need organ meats to meet your micros. If you like them though, eat up!
That's a good point, Ci - if we didn't know about calories, I suppose we'd all just have to eat healthy foods to satiation and call it a day. The only thing that is important when you're buying groceries are the ingredients. And you're cold because you aren't eating enough. If you're afraid to eat more food, why don't you just eat more calorically dense foods? Buy 2% yoghurt instead of 0%. Eat mangoes instead of melon. Eat 2 bananas instead of 1 banana and carrots.
If you want to get a dog, why not? If you want to get a job, why don't you? I'm sorry that I'm not being very understanding, but it's because I don't understand. You say you don't want to hurt your boyfriend. Is his happiness (to be blunt and callous, what appears to me, by your own description, to be his very selfish ideal of happiness, I'm sorry) so important that it should be upheld to the point of your detriment? I am not discounting the wonderful and selfless things that he has done for you or vilifying him in any way, but you do not owe anyone your life.
Also, I am not ignoring all of the amazing strides you are making. The fact that you are recognizing that you need to change is in itself a great leap; perhaps even greater than making those changes, as that should not be as difficult as you're making it out to be. I really am very proud of you!
I am sorry for how I'm presenting my thoughts to you, but it reflects how strongly I feel. I believe in you and your ability to change your life. I know how much potential you have and I'm just wishing you could see it too.