Thursday, June 6
Friend overstayed his welcome last night, and I was counting down the minutes until he left! Sooo sleepy. 2am-11:30am. Felt gooood.
Lazy day today... didn't even take a walk! Just one of those days.
B: Coffee, almond milk, matcha, stevia.
L: 2oz. smoked salmon, 1/2 small avocado, 8 cherry tomatoes, a buncha greens, 1/4 large cucumber, 1tsp sesame oil, rice wine vinegar, wasabi powder, salt.
S: 1 cup 0% Creek yogurt, 1 small mango, a few strawberries. At the movies: a tootsie roll pop.
D: 1 chicken breast marinated in liquid smoke, ACV, and BBQ sauce, with cinnamon roasted baby carrots (teensy bit of butter) and asparagus. Organiville BBQ sauce on the side.
S: 1c yogurt, 1 banana, some cherries. 2 servings gelatin made into a Caramel tea + almond milk jelly. Yummm.
Update: some spaghetti squash, a little cream cheese, cinnamon, sugar. a cup of almond milk. Later, some baked beans that were left over in the fridge, a few Reese's Pieces, a nibble of salmon (couldn't keep out of the fridge!)
Drinks: Water, coffee, almond milk, matcha, Pellegrino, the last of the pineapple juice, more water, sleepy tea.
Cravings: Chocolate, coconut. Am I depriving myself of fats? Who knows.
Calories: ~1300. After the update, ~1650. (I wasn't even really hungry for food, but I recognized that I was feeling anger and anxiety, and that's why I ate it. Now I feel like I ate a lot. Maybe I'll break some kind of personal record at the gym tomorrow.)
Hair: a little greasy. bleh.
Skin: scrubbed, massaged, and exfoliated the broken skin today with hot water. I didn't wear any foundation today in hopes to let it heal a little bit.
Nails: I wish they were in better shape, I want to do some fancy nail art for my anniversary!
Body: felt ok today. I even wore a tight velvet-y top and shorts (my "skinny" shorts still fit me!) It felt good to wear things that I like and not feel gross about it. *outfit described above looks better than it sounds. lol.
Digestion: My BMs were... different, today. Much more solid and lighter in color. I'm wondering if this is because of the gelatin that I've been eating, or the fact that I haven't been able to overeat cocoa powder for a few days. I was just very slightly bloated, and during the movie today, my stomach made a horrible loud "hungry" sound (I wasn't hungry) for seemingly no reason.
Energy: kind of a low energy day since it was raining, and we had nothing to do, and I wanted today to be a rest day from exercise so I don't burn out like I did last week. Kinda sucked, though, the day just seemed to draaaag on.
I've been reading my own journal back to myself .... God. How do you people stand me?! I am sick and tired of feeling so sorry for myself, honestly. I am putting my foot down and saying fuck you to my own negativity....
So today was fucking AWESOME. I saw 3 rainbows, and a movie (After Earth) so bad that it was hilarious. It was not a comedy. My friend didn't text me back because she's nocturnal and wakes up at 8pm every evening apparantly, lol! My dinner will inevitably be awesome because my cooking skills are bad ass, and then I'm going to get rock solid sleep on my freshly cleaned bed linens whenever I get sleepy. Then tomorrow starts Anniversary Celebration Extravagaaaaanza.