N=Val. Experiments in healing... page 6

[valmason01]

Hah....You let me know if you can find a guide willing to do that. Damn chips! I have thrown the last half bag away and thrown away the last bite of 3 muskateers bar. I have my meals planned for the week. I can do this! I have to do this!

I'll let you know when the Seder is, i forgot. Sounds good on next weekend. When it gets closer we can finalize the time.

I figured out a way of the jungle. You need a guide to throw themselves in harms (chips) way and mock the ferocios beast (sugar). If you can't find a guide than a sacrafice might work to.

[tomi]

How's it going?

[valmason01]

ARRGGHHH!!! Not easy. I think about food all the time. And then I got home today and found this letter in the mail box stating that certain forms needed for my speech therapist certification were not found or something. I know damn good and well I mailed them because I checked everything about 100 times. I have a job waiting on this and I need the money. And of course the letter is vague and I can't get in touch w/ the woman I need. I am trying very hard to be calm. I have called once a week for 3 weeks and they have said it is in process, you will get a email if there is a problem. Nope. No effing email. Just this vague letter. I almost cried. I hate crying!

(sorry you asked now?)

How's it going?

[tomi]

uh oh........... sorry! I get cranky at stuff like that too - and its worse when you really it done NOW!

You can think about food - just think about eating only what is good for you and push the rest out of your head!

[valmason01]

I am still so angry. I am trying to be calm. And of course being the idiot I am I sent all this paperwork off without making copies of it. Who does that??? And I just want bad food. I don't know what is wrong with me

uh oh........... sorry! I get cranky at stuff like that too - and its worse when you really it done NOW!

You can think about food - just think about eating only what is good for you and push the rest out of your head!

[jenn26point2]

Frustration gets us all. Is there any way you can contact the people who originally sent you the certificates to provide a second copy?

[valmason01]

I managed to talk to someone today and find out the problem. I have to resubmit the paperwork by mail with original signatures. This requires finding a time both my supervisor and myself will occupy the same place and time to get her signature and then overnight the paperwork and then it could be another 4-6 weeks!!!! I am of course not taking that laying down. I told the woman I would have it to her no later than Tuesday and I would call her that day. It is just absurd. They cashed my 511.00 check 6 weeks ago but they can't take care of the damn paperwork. ARRRRRGGHHHHHH!!!!!! And I am horny and feeling fat and ugly. Not sure why those feelings are all existing in one place but they are. Tired of being alone! I am just irritable tonight

Not even talking about the food. Damn food anyway. I got to figure out a way past this.

[jenn26point2]

At least there's a solution. I wish they hadn't lost the paperwork, but it seems to happen all the time. Luckily, you can correct the situation in the near-term.

Sorry about the conflicting feelings. Emotions are strange, aren't they?

[valmason01]

Sorry about the conflicting feelings. Emotions are strange, aren't they?

They really are. And they govern so much of what we do. Sometimes I wish I could be one of those people who just shuts them off and is completely logical. But then life would be so boring It will all work out. I just keep reminding myself of that.

[tomi]

Stress can result in a flare --- try to find a way to calm your emotions. It sucks - but it is what it is - and the anger and frustration will not remedy the situation - just make you very unhappy and physically ill. Not that I don't totally understand what you're feeling, I just know its best to find a way to "chill out". I'd hate to see a flare make you even more miserable.

{hugs}