time to update
Home from Tallahassee. It was a fun trip. Got to spend some good time with my nieces and nephew and my sister. She is going through a mid life crisis. In some ways its good. She has spent the last 13 years (how long she has been married) very rigid, trying to do everything just right, trying not to be like our mother and getting more and more like her. She is finally starting to let go of all of that. But her marriage is in trouble and she is fighting a strong attraction to another man. And she is very depressed. Makes me sad. And of course she doesn't listen to my nutrition advice which frustrates me because I think it would help alot. The kids eat so much horrible junk. Have y'all ever looked at what is in the stands at the super market. It's not just chocolate and gum. It is these horrible concoctions of artificial flavors and chemicals and just nasty nasty stuff. I ended up buying my 7 year old niece Godiva chocolate to keep her from eating some kind of horrible nasty sugar flavored something. I figured if she was going to eat sugar at least Godiva was better than that. I try so hard not to preach but of course I do because I want whats good for them and I don't want them to have the struggles we have had or that my son has had. I think in a lot of ways I am doing penance because I taught my son such a horrible way of living. Though he does seem to be doing better. He has lost weight and his psoriasis is improved. It makes it harder to preach when I am not on course as well. Which is a good reason to get back on course.
My sister and I both started the JUDDD diet yesterday. I screwed up and didn't eat anything until 7 and then was ravenous and ate way too much. I ate way too much today as well of course. Food is a major part of our family celebrations. So I start again tomorrow. I am planning a small green salad w/ EVOO, full fat greek yogurt w/ cinnamon, a scrambled egg and maybe some bacon. Trying to spread it out to keep from hitting yesterdays mistakes. And make sure there is fat so I don't end up starving. I want to start losing again and I want to be healthy. Funny, despite everything I ate today: ham, broccoli salad, fruit, creamed corn, small helping of chicken and dumplings (because oh my gosh chicken and dumplings!) and to top it off banana pudding because I haven't had it since my grandmother died and my cousin made it and some things you just chalk down to you only live once, I am still hungry. (How do you like that sentence? ). I know its because I ate too many carbs and not enough fat and protein. Its been a while since I did that. It is a good reminder.
Blessed Easter to all.
You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.
SW 215 lbs
CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
LW 172 lbs
GW 125ish lbs