Hey Tina, My heart goes out to you. I suffered from a pretty severe ED for 13 years, and your struggle reminds me of my own.
I'm actually pretty much cured now, and I did it by allowing myself to eat. For a full month I gorged on the most nutrient dense food I could. It's three months later, and I haven't binged once. This is coming from someone who used to binge six days a week.
Anyway, I documented the whole experience in my journal Please feel free to drop me a line if you decide to read it and it resonates with you.
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat