Back on March 11, I wrote a note in my MDA Journal that I was going to give up dairy (except butter in BP coffee) and artificial sweetners. Drinking just plain water took a little getting used to, but we have good tasting water, and it seemed like I was going to succeed. I didn't see any change in the scale, but I figured it would just take time. Well, I had to do some grocery shopping Tuesday morning and I went ahead and bought my mom a 1.5 quart container of Rocky Road ice cream. She has not been able to have ice cream because I can't have it in the house - it is a major binge food (all or nothing) for me. She had some with her lunch, then had some for desert after dinner. I asked for a little bit, and she kindly gave me just about a half cup. MMM delicious. Waited for her to go to bed, then I got up and took some more. Then I took a little more. I repeated this till the container was EMPTY. I hid the container under my bathroom sink and am praying that she'll forget about it (she's 87).
The remorse is almost overwhelming. Not only did I eat all of my mom's ice cream, I consumed almost 300 grams of simple carbohydrates in one sitting.
I went back to Crystal lite in my water yesterday. Screw it.
"Just give me all the bacon and eggs you have. Wait, wait. I'm worried what you just heard was, 'Give me a lot of bacon and eggs.' What I said was, 'Give me all the bacon and eggs you have'. Do you understand?" - Ron Swanson