OK so the point of this journal is to get my mind right. I am basically in uncharted territory. I have never in my adult life been this small...
think about that for a moment.
I do not think that my metabolic bullshit is healed, i do think it is different. So i think I need to act as if this is day one.
the last time i saw 335 I was 19. So i can pretty much say my hormones are different.
the last time i saw 335 i could not sprint, do pushups, or 1/4 of a pull up. I could not cross my legs to any degree or sit seiza at all. Squats were a concept with no basis in reality.
I am a different entity.
so i need a new point of view