Can I ask - how many calories a day do people eat that makes them put the weight back on, and what kinds of food?
Also, I think most people have a number they want the scales to tell them. Do you know why your number is your number?
Even though I've probably never been fat, I've been "fat" in my head for 14 years.
When I was 17 I fell in love for the first time and couldn't eat for probably a month. I probably dropped 7 lbs - which isn't a lot, but I was already pretty thin, and when I got back to school I weighed 108 lbs (I'm 5'8). Everyone made a huge deal over my "figure", I got approached by a modelling agency, and coupled with being in love, I think that waif-like weight got tied up in my head with happiness, and for the next 14 years I have fought to be that weight again, thinking that's where happiness was.
I became vegetarian cos' I thought it would help me lose more weight. I counted calories. I starved myself. I started binging and started putting on weight.
Three times over the last 14 years I have gotten back to that "ideal" weight - when I was 24 (starvation, maintained it with low carb), 28 (calorie restriction), and 29 (veganism) . I maintained it for a year at 24, six months at 28, and only three months at 29. Usually I fluctuated between 112 lbs and 135 lbs. The heaviest I was was when I was 27 - I weighed 145 lbs, and I dropped to 110 in a few months.
I've always put the weight back on through binging. Exercise doesn't seem to have much effect on my weight.
Thankfully Primal taught me not to fear fat, to eat meat again, and to eat food with as little processing as possible. But believe it or not, it was not a diet, but the debates on this forum that have helped me the most. I realised that I have so many food phobias and that I will never have a stable weight until I deal with those. I gave myself the freedom to eat everything and I accepted that I was going to put on weight while this happened. I'm still operating on teh principle of eating real foods, but if I really want something I'm not depriving myself anymore. I have given up dieting, and am not allowed to weigh myself. I think I'm slowly finding what works for me, and I hope over the next few months I'll go to my "natural" weight.
“I'm glad mushrooms are against the law, because I took them one time, and you know what happened to me? I laid in a field of green grass for four hours going, "My God! I love everything." Yeah, now if that isn't a hazard to our country..."
― Bill Hicks
"Sometimes eating the wrong food with the right attitude is a better choice than eating the right food with the wrong attitude... That’s how powerful the mind and the heart can be in the healing process."
- Chris Kresser