Screw the mystic B.S. But attitudes can make or break any situation in seconds. It's critical to asses all thoughts before affirming them. i didn't know that until rehab.
I stand rigidly in the employee back-halls at work, tense and immovable like a death metal vocalist. In the patient's room, I have to ooze love and compassion. I get paid to give a darn. So when I'm standing in the hall, on my computer figuring things out for the next stab, that's my chance to feel gruff and negative. Because in three minutes I'm mandatory Mr. Sunshine again. I'm starting to understand why medical people are all a little nutty. Do I wave and smile to passing nurses and other staff? Yeah. Do I give a darn if they start telling me their life story? No way. I get myself out of it so fast! I think pretending to care is professional courtesy - and the line is drawn where you have to start pretending to listen to long drawn-out B.S. about who said what to whom and other details that mean nothing.
What happens to THAT energy? Do others get on board and also not give a darn while pretending to care? I think we all like having the ice broken, but cower in terror of what lies beneath. In that way, sarcastic sunshine sets the stage for reducing emotional exhaustion. We only have so many darns to give, and we're not going to waste them on each other when there's a whiny patient 30 feet away we have to placate. So positive energy has its place, but there are circumstances where it's healthier to sulk a bit and just pretend, and even just plain frown a bit to flex those emotional muscles.
Steak, eggs, potatoes - fruits, nuts, berries and forage. Coconut milk and potent herbs and spices. Tea instead of coffee now and teeny amounts of kelp daily. Let's see how this does! Not really had dairy much, and gut seems better for it.