If you want to go the counseling route, call the free clinics in your city or if you have a Family Service Agency call them. They can show you the way to sliding scale services that you will qualify for. Since you probably don't have any money, you won't have to pay. Your other option is to go to Overeaters Anonymous. That is also free (they usually pass a hat but you don't have to put any money in if you don't have any) and you can just sit in the back and be quiet the whole time if you want. If there isn't one available and you have friends or family members who are alcoholics or drug addicts you could find similar support at Al-Anon. At one point in my life I went to Al-Anon meetings every single day and sometimes twice a day for a year. It really helped me get over all the internal crap in my life that kept me doing destructive things to myself. It wasn't a perfect cure, but it really helped me move forward in life. What they do in these meetings is let you talk for several minutes about whatever is bothering you and nobody interrupts, nobody gives you advice or criticizes or even comments on what you said. It's very liberating.
Female, 5'3", 49, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135 (more or less).
Starting squat: 45lbs. Highest squat: 167.5 x 2. Current Deadlift: 190 x 3