Today I realize I am not surrendering, not letting go. I am not in the moment, I am living in the past and future and letting it twist me into a pretzel of negative emotion and thoughts.
"If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present." ~Lao Tzu
I am not following the goals given to me by my guide and agreed upon. So today I am reading about letting go. Let Go of Control: How to Learn the Art of Surrender | Tiny Buddha
I am a control freak, controlling, pressuring, sometimes mean as hell. And not trusting. I must trust my love, the universe, and my partner. For my sake. Control is leading to anxiety and depression. It always has, it always will.
My work is to let go, trust and stay in the moment. Today everything is fine. Today is here and now and all. Suffering is caused by my resistance to all of these things.
Wish me luck!