Kymma, Kisses are my only sugar - Journal page 18

[Kymma]

Well, food was screwy yesterday, but at least it was primal. Had some mashed potatoes for lunch, but oh well. However, I have done my burst dvd both mornings and am really enjoying it. Hopefully, I can get my food back in line and keep up the exercise and break through the current mental and physical barriers I am dealing with. I am trying to focus on just this at the moment, as it is something I can control, and not much else is.

[Kymma]

Down 5 lbs of inflammation. I have a feeling I will have a net gain of 3 lbs next Monday, and my prediction of 2 weeks to undo 1 week will be true. Maybe I will see some acceleration with the use of Burst training in tandem with EMF. We are doing it every morning. I really hope so. I sure would love to lose 20 in a month like the dvd says, lol. I'd take any loss of course.

[Kymma]

Back to 230.8.

I am having a lot of frustration. I am going to do a round of hcg in May. I am done with doing it all naturally. I have read and watched a group of women achieve their weight loss goals while I took the longer path of food and exercise. I have worked at WOE and natural for over 2 years.

I will continue to take the longer path until late April. Then I am saying f it and getting myself under 200. THere are health risks with everything. Being obese and depressed about it is a horrible risk for me. Getting under 200 would be a huge help. So I am going to end this ride and in the interim, keep on the HFLC path and hopefully eat this way for the rest of my life. My thinner life.

[Kymma]

228.4

Food was better yesterday, went over on macros, but kept out of non-primal foods for the most part (peanut butter). It was good, because I had tons of anxiety yesterday again. Thank goodness fro premsyn, it really took the edge off.

I am feeling the need to get things cleaned and organized to let some of the pressure off in my head. But I have no motivation to make myself do tasks. So tonight I am going to do the 15 minute mode for my bedroom and my mail/junk pile on the dining table. Then I will do one load of laundry, and cook pork chops and roasted okra for dinner. Maybe if I take little steps to get it done, it will help lead to getting it done.

[Kymma]

226

Weight is coming down, I am sure a lot of it was inflammation. 6 more and I have gotten off the yo-yo. I am feeling empowered.

Made cream cheese clouds and definitely ate too many, but not too many for a couple pounds to eat. I do find the more fat I eat, the more hungry and satiated I get. I mean, I feel hunger growls this morning, but also get more satiated when I eat. Love that part!

[canio6]

So, still planning the hcg?

[Kymma]

So, still planning the hcg?

Most likely.

The weight thing has been a huge struggle for over 5 years. I am ready to see what is next, what happens after I am no longer a full time weight loss obsessed woman. I may get to April and decide against it. Or I may say f it and hit the "easy" button once to get some momentum moving.

[canio6]

Most likely.

The weight thing has been a huge struggle for over 5 years. I am ready to see what is next, what happens after I am no longer a full time weight loss obsessed woman. I may get to April and decide against it. Or I may say f it and hit the "easy" button once to get some momentum moving.

Sounds like a plan. I look forward to reading your experiences

[Pebbles67]

Kymma, You are doing a great job getting back on the wagon!

[Kymma]

225.4

I think the burstfit dvd is helping me shed the uptick from the binge fest. I have eaten too damn many of those delicious cream cheese clouds, but I think the fat is helping. I am feeling engaged and empowered again.