I don't get why you say you want to do raw vegan and then the first thing you pull out is some kind of disgusting protein powder. Why don't you eat raw vegan real food? You like actual raw FOOD! Tomatoes, bananas, apples, nuts, avocados, sprouted lentils, sweet fruit of all kinds, savory fruits of all kinds, vegetables of all kinds. You know, actual food.
The reason you want to eat everything and can't do strict diets is because you bloody hell should quit doing them.
Female, 5'3", 48, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135.
Starting squat: 45lbs. Current squat: 145 x 4.