A few times things have gotten weird with male friends. When they do, I get the heck out of there. As exciting as it could feel even to keep it all completely in an imaginary place in my head and never cross any outward lines, I don't need that kind of drama in my life and don't want to do that to another person, even if that other person never knows, even if it never leaves my own head and they never know. So I just don't go there.
Female, 5'3", 48, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135.
Starting squat: 45lbs. Current squat: 145 x 4.