If you have an eating disorder you ought to see a professional or attend group counseling or maybe see a naturopathic doctor who understands women and women's hormones. You will hem and haw about this and really nobody is interested in your reasons why you can't, but it's your only option, really. Eating natural food is not that complicated and with a name like "Dream"Health and being fearful to start a way of life that is natural and healthy means you probably Dream more than you Do and your problems are much bigger than food. Sorry to be so blunt.
Female, 5'3", 49, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135 (more or less).
Starting squat: 45lbs. Heaviest squat: 180 x 2. Heaviest Deadlift: 230 x 2