Jena's Journal... page 8

[Jena]

Not sure how much I will be journaling anymore. It's starting to feel a little self involved. Not to say that is actually is, but I've been having a little trouble getting out of my own head lately and I don't think this is helping me. I am trying to take some focus off of myself and put it elsewhere. Still going to be primal, that's for life! Still going to post about the huge things, but I just can't listen to myself drone on about myself anymore. It's hurting me, probably my relationships and friendships too. I'm not sure what is going to make me "better", but talking about myself isn't it. I'm going to try to do some volunteer work, get more involved in my community. I've been healing my body, it's time to heal my soul.

[Primal Primate]

I hear you. It can be draining to keep going on about yourself - I think this works best to celebrate the successes and when needed seek advice from the rest who have gone before us. Happy trails Jena!

[Jena]

Wow... had to post something on here about my "cheat" day. It has been a really really long time since I have had one and I did Monday. At work I had 4 pieces of peanut butter fudge. Then at my other job's Xmas party that night I had nachos, beans, chocolate eclair things, candy, etc... I haven't been right since... just another reminder that it just isn't worth it. A small treat once in a while, fine, but all that flour, corn, and sugar effed me up! It's easy to forget how bad I used to feel all the time!

[Jena]

Oh yeah... and what the hell... I might as well brag. 40 lbs gone now

[ssn679doc]

losing 40lbs is something worth "braggin" about! Congrats!!

[Jena]

Thanks!

[Jena]

Happy Xmas everyone! Man... I have gotten really off track over the last couple of weeks! And my tummy has been paying the price. After dinner tomorrow I'm back at it. I'm going back to being super strict! Meat, veggies, and the occasional dairy and fruit! I haven't been eating bread or pasta, but I have I indulged in way too many sweet treats, potatoes, and too much white rice. Less the sweets these are things I allow myself on a weekly basis, but I think I have to get back to basics for a while! Oh... and the cocktails.... waaaay too many holiday party cocktails lately! Not to mention I'm adjusting to a sedentary job that leaves me with brain fog. Time to start working out too!

[Jena]

Happy New Year!

[Jena]

Just started reading Primal Connection. I think the parts about getting rid of negative self talk and living in the moment are exactly what I need to hear right now. I have been pretty lax about being primal lately. Working two jobs, babysitting, dating, and trying to have a social life have taken their toll. I haven't been too bad, but I have looked the other way when it comes to vegetable oils, light breading on some foods, and have been eating waaaay too much rice and potatoes! I need to get back to just meat, veggies, and eggs, with a little fruit. And I really have to start taking my lunch to work... or just skip eating on my lunch. Luckily I haven't gained any weight back, I don't think, but I certainly will if I keep this up. Not to mention that I still want to lose a lot more. Oh... and exercise has been pretty non-existent Time to do something!

[Primal Primate]

Hey Jena,
Sounds like you have lots going on - glad to see you are out and about living the good life - Grok on girl!